I am feeling so so so sad and I just need to write about it somewhere.
I don't want to put this on facebook.*
A few days ago I got the news that a friend of my sons passed away suddenly during the night. His wife tried to wake him and then cpr but it was too late. He was 24, got married earlier this year and was the nicest young man you could ever meet.
Matthew loved everyone, he accepted everyone, he was zany and crazy and had an amazing sense of humor.
If I ever wondered what Jesus was like it was Matthew. He believed and yet there was absolutely no judgment in him. He happily sat down with the "sinners" they all called him friend.
He was smart and fun and following his dreams.
He had so much life ahead of him.
We all kind of think like we will live until an old age and thats not necessarily true. In the blink of an eye you could be gone!
This has made me wonder about my own life. Am I living for God? Can people see that in me and the way that I treat them? Am I following my dreams? Am I trying new things and being passionate about life? Do my family know that I love them? The way Matthews family and wife did? If I die have a left behind a legacy of love? Or a legacy of mediocre? I want it to be love, like Matt has.
Andie ( who will be back to blogging about happier things soon)
* I did not want to put this on FB and make Matts family sad. I am not his family or even a close friend, just someone who has been touched by his kindness, friendliness and the way he lived his life. Matt was a very good friend to my son, in fact all Matts friends say "one of my best friends" He was that kind of person. I miss knowing he is in the world. It really sucks